Trusting God

The concept of Trusting God is one of the easiest things in the world to tell a friend when he or she is down or depressed. But how often do we follow our advice instead of just handing it out? I know we Trust God the most when we are in times of depression or hurt, but how often do we Trust God when life is going great or how we want it? What about on the other end of the spectrum when our world is upside down and we feel like blaming God?

What I'm about to share is very personal, but I want to share my heart on this issue. I'm not perfect. Shocker, right? haha, but one of my life's pursuits is to Trust God no matter what. That is an area of my life that is kind of a pet peeve because I struggle with it quite regularly. My default reaction is to try to fix things my way or alter things in my own power so that things go my way. I believe with all my heart that is why I am a cileac. My thorn in the flesh. More literal than figuratively.

I was diagnosed with cileac's disease during my young teenager years after knowing that I had some type of stomach problem while I was growing up. Living with cileacs has been difficult at times. My tendency through it has been to trust myself and not to Trust God. Living with cileacs has in essence, changed how I live life. I've had to cut wheat (gluten) totally out of my life. I won't go into details, but that's only part of cileacs. My intestines were not formed correctly when I was born and are weak as well because of that. I am for the vast majority of the time under pressure or cramps from my intestines. There are times when these pains spike and as said earlier, my initial reaction is to trust in myself instead of Trusting God. I'll depend on pain killer, or my heating pad, and give God a five second prayer to help and then go back to dealing with the pain in my own way. I should be Trusting God instead of relaying on myself or means that are not God.

My intention is not to start a pity party or such but to share my heart in how I have been working on in my life. Trust God. It's always one of the first things out of our lips to our friends as advice, but are we giving hypocritical words or genuine truth that we display in our own lives?

Recently, my intestines have been giving me rare problems that are very painful and I can say with full certainty that my Trust is in God. My challenge to myself is to that even when this mini trial has passed that I would still Trust God just as much after the trial as during it. This is an area of my life I struggle with and with God's grace, I will do my best to conquer this area of my life and hopefully live a life of consistently Trusting God. I'm going to list some verses that have been a help to me and hopefully will be an encouragement to you.

Psalm 20:7 "Some trust in chariots, and some in horses: but we will remember the name of the LORD our God."

Psalm 27:1 "The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"

Psalm 118:8 "It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man."

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."

Jeremiah 32:27 "Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?"

Philippians 4:7 "And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."